Pearls of Great Value

I’m learning to trust God with my time. I’m learning to continue in faith despite the circumstances. I’m learning to walk my belief, not just talk it.

But still, I often struggle with Gods timing. I often want to say, God are you seeing me? Yes, I know that He knows my heart and he knows how to prepare me for tomorrow. He knows the plans that He has for me and it’s filled with promise. I know all this in my head but sometimes it’s hard for my heart to see. Why is this?

I came to a realization. I feel God is not responsible to get me to the end goal or to fulfill my potential. Yes, He is my helper, yes,He is my strength, yes, He gives me wisdom and also the will to overcome. But, is He responsible for my decisions? Is it on Him to make me a follower, to choose good, or to do His will? No, its on me to make those choices. I think too often I don’t listen to Him, and end up where I shouldn’t be. Or I choose to jump ahead in life because I don’t trust Him completely and end up being disappointed. Yes, I said it. I admit it. In some situations, I have trust issues. I question, when instead I should be holding His hand. I’ve often let my heart be troubled about my future. Yet my Father has said, do not let your heart be troubled! This isn’t a suggestion. He commands it. Why? Because our heart can be deceived if we don’t guard it. Our heart can lead us astray if we let it. Look at the wording of this command: DO NOT LET your heart be troubled. Jesus is saying, Don’t let your heart lead you! You lead your heart. Lead it in the manner that is God-fearing and worthy of the Lord.

Faithful in the little things. Trusting in the hard times. Learning to be fruitful all the time. Being steadfast when the circumstances are stormy and life is rocky. These are the moments and decisions that prepare the heart to believe. The choices of each day are what gets my heart in shape or out of shape.

Am I faithful where God has placed me? Am I looking at this day right now as a preparation stage? Am I being patient, am I enduring, am I resting in God? Am I? If I am, at the other side of this, I’ll be a better person for it. Do I train myself and discipline myself in the Word? Do I submit and obey His voice? Do I grow in humility? If I am, I will see the goodness of the Lord pour forth in my life. Am I willing and do I do things Gods way, both in secret and in public? That’s a tough one. Often we slack in our private lives not thinking that it impacts our public life. But character is built in the shadows of life. In the midst of the hustle and bustle. We have to be just as diligent to be God-fearing in the mundane. Always disciplined in being faithful whether it’s in making huge decisions or small everyday choices.

The struggle comes when I’m not being obedient to His voice. Unbelief is born in the heart that doesn’t heed the Lord nor sees His goodness. Doubt enters when the lies of the enemy aren’t being torn down by the truth of the Word. The soldier that forgets to put on his armor will be the first to get hit. A warrior without a weapon is soon defeated. Likewise a Christian who never picks up the sword of the Word is already losing the battle. And if he doesn’t listen to the General of the army, how will he know the battle plan and gain victory?

So, for this season, I pray for all of us, wisdom to heed Gods voice and the strength to be patient in trials. Lord, help us to trust in your time! Help us to be faithful in the everyday moments so that we can grow and bear fruit. Let us not grow weary in doing good! I hear this echo in my heart over and over. I feel that You are trying to get this into our soul. Those that wait upon You and trust in your Word will not grow weary! Thank you for infusing us with Your love! We love you, help us to love you but more! In Jesus Name, Amen.